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When I'm young from the start I know my self and I know that I am a gay, my parents don’t like me as like that, so I let my self not to show off until I have graduated from high school but as time goes by, I cant help my self but to feel free of being me but my father argued me as a result he hurt me so I left the home and stay in my friend house, my mother looking for me that time and look me everywhere until she met my friend and took me again to our house, but I still want to be a shemale so even they don’t like I crossdress. because of this I don’t continue my studies and not gone to college so I don’t have a good profession and I'm not fluent in English nor good in writing English so I don’t know any job but to be a cyber model, even I don’t like my work but I have to have a job to support my need coz I'm taking hormonal pills to develop my body into a woman, I'm drinking that to have my tits, and I need to buy my own clothes and my food I mean I am separated and have my own living. my father don’t have work and my mother deceased, I have 4 brothers and 5 sisters but they all have their own family so its not good if I stay to them, they just support him but not me anymore.
I my self I am a nice person but I'm speechless and I don’t have a male friend maybe the reason is that they don’t understand me and don’t like to accept me because of public discrimination, I don’t always go outside because I'm too shy that’s why I have a few gay friend, maybe I’m not like of them so noisy, gay, so talkative and funny, I could say I am so different and weird type but not crazy, I'm always alone and nothing to talk with, meaning I’m so lonely and blue, well that’s not my choice I just don’t know why I am like this, I am so simple kind of person, I'm not materialistic my simple wish is to be happy, I only have a little knowledge in life, I know how to cook but only a few recipe, I dream of having a bf but he don’t give me but I'm still hoping and waiting.
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General Blog Category: Relationships, Romance, Love
Current Mood: cheerful
Added on: 06/13/08 10:20
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