Starting Out

Hi,

Im Sarah, or atleast thats the name that i will be known by to anyone i work with. Im a 22 year old pre-operative transsexual student in London (studying for a degree i dont really want, but kind of want, at a university that will work me to death). Before i started university i had relativley big debts and what with moving to London, im being financially crippled by extortionate rent and living costs.

Ive dabbled with escorting before, but never really made a big thing of it. Some people somewhere knew that i escorted, and occasionaly i would get a call, if i was free, i'd do it, if not, then never mind. But this only happened maybe 5 times across a time gap of 18 months....

I work a regular job but the total i can earn from it, doesnt come near to funding me, and any extra student support is out of the question, becuase of some beurocratic crap that means im in some sort of finance loophole.

So, i see this advert on a website, algedly looking for glamour models, so i think, hey what the hell, i think they are probably asking for people to shoot porn (it had stuff about open mindedness and all) or something in the adult community, and it mentioned good rates of pay. So i give the number a call, and sure as that, its a new escort agency opening up. Now at this point in time, id thought about escorting, but not in a im actually going to do this kinda way. So we chatting for a few minutes, and i was certainly interested. Obviously the transsexual thing was not something they were even thinking about, but were more than happy to help.

And that sorta leaves me where i am now. Ive agreed to go ahead with it. Im not having second thoughts, i know i want to do this, i know that if it works it will help with some of my fiancial difficulties. Im not expecting the world (though it would be nice), and i know (atleast i think i do) that my studies are the priority. I guess, im nervous. And i really don't know who to talk to about it. One of the girls at the agency said she was more than happy to chat, but i kinda need to work this through either with friends (yea, right, out myself as transsexual, and tell them im an escort, that will kill some of them!!), or in pseudo-anonimity, like in a blog.

My mind is flying all over the place sometimes, and othertimes im calm, and think, i dont know what i was stressing about. I guess ill try to write a little about each of my anxieties as they come up over the next few days before i start, and then from there, try to keep sane, by writing about things.

Anyway, wish me luck!!

Sarah xx

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